It was nobody’s fault. She knew it had to be done. She had
left home 3 months ago, on this very day, she had settled into her new life. Her
hopes were high, she wanted to see the world and experience life as it comes. Little
did she know that even in the midst of everything pristine, there would be an
inherent decay. Little did she realize then what she sees as cool waves of life
would make her cold within and lifeless.
Its been more than a month when she saw the change in
herself, her appearance. It was then that she noticed parts of her everywhere,
as iff she had broken down, unknowingly. The fun and excitement posed a sudden
question, to what end, if this? Her initial reaction was that of shock, which
soon turned into denial. She lived with that feeling even after she had to
return. She was losing herself, but at such a rate. She was scared for her
future, confused at her state. She wanted to share it but was not able to. She remained
quiet, aware of the fire and frustration building up within. She knew it is
almost time. But was she ready to face it? What about her future? What would
happen once she is done with it?
Finally she dressed up, took her purse, checked iff she
had enough cash. She even took her card, just in case. Took up an auto and gave
the auto driver the address. For the first time ever she didn’t bargain. What she
was to do in the next few minutes will change a lot of things, she knew, the
bargain didn’t matter that day. When she reached, she could feel the air
inside. Every person looked as if they knew what they did. It didn’t frighten
her, she had made up her mind. They welcomed her into the building, as if they
were expecting her. She paid up the entire amount upfront. Her hands didn’t tremble;
there was no doubt in her voice. She took the place assigned to her and closed
her eyes. She could feel a man approaching her, she could hear the shrill sound
of steel and sharp objects. She shooed away all opposing thoughts. It was but a
matter of minutes.
She opened her eyes, and smiled. The haircut was as she
had expected.
